I have found so much that explains so little of myself, I have found things that I deemed fit to describe how life works, but finally a quotes that can define to some part of who I am has come to surface. The complexity of myself can at least be categorized to a degree.
My goal in life is to become an astrophysicist. Though I have started down the path to complete this task, it is a long road filled with many challenges, and is incredibly daunting. Why do I like this topic of astronomy? I could not really answer such a question, it was just something I needed to do. It was something I felt connected to. I never could fully grasp, not describe why I felt such a pull towards it. But now I understand and see one reason for my love for space. It's always changing, and is so mysteriously beautiful. I can go out at night and look up to see the magnificent stars look back down upon me. I want to know how it works so I can better understand the beauty I see. I want to know it's future and it's past, to imagine it all before it is all gone. There is so much to see, and I never will see all of it, but I can look and see so much as it changes and shifts into more and more complex creations.
I want space travel to happen, because I want to see the universe as it is. I want to see it's magnificence, it's grand size. There is so much out there waiting for us to come and explore. The universe that we look up and see is of the past, the creating and destroying of stars and galaxies have left us something new, something that we must see for ourselves as we travel outwards. and no matter where you go, it will always hold something unexpected. The universe is so vast, and we know so very little of it. I want to know about it, and I want to see it.
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| A brief moment of beauty before it's gone. |
This is why I do photography, not because I enjoy taking pictures, oddly enough I hate it. But I wish to capture that moments that I find before they're gone. I want to hold on to it, as I travel towards my end, knowing that each moment I capture I can still carry with my both in mind and in image. But for the most part, the most beautiful moments are those that occur spontaneously, those brief excellent moments that are ever so fleeting, yet so remarkable that they imprint on your mind and remain with you to your end. Those moments that define your life, and give you a purpose. Those moments are so small, yet have such a profound impact upon our lives. That when I face the darkness of my life, I can look at them and bring joy to a joyless moment. These moments go so fast, and all I want to do is run to them. All I want to do is make them last forever, but time continues, and the moment ends and I have to painfully wait until the next, but in waiting, the moments become all the more meaningful.
Just like my friends, and the feeling of when I left highschool, and and other twist and turns in my life. Those moments can be drawn out over time, but they always end. They always fade.
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| The ever changing world |
They are excellent and I never wanted to leave them, but time has it's hand all set and ready to go. The quote above characterizes how I feel about the people I encounter. I can be the best if friends with them, and have the greatest of memories, but as times change so do our lives, and we can't always remain as close as planned. Soon those moments that were shared become only memories, but the feeling of bonds are still there. For they are seared onto my heart(s) and are a constant reminder of the faded world that was. Those that you knew and loved become stories to those of now. They become legends in your mind, and pains to your dreams. The people I've met have helped shape me into the person that I have become, and the person I am going to be. They have become a part of me in some way shape or form. They helped lead me to where I am now, and therefore I can not forget them. I know that friendships last for a time, but not typically as long as we would like. So I run towards them as best as I can, for as long as I can. I try to keep them from fading, but eventually they do. I am running to them before they fade from me. Before I must look towards the next moment.
The world is so full of such beautiful moments, and it is always changing into more and more things at each second. There is so much to see, so much so that we barely notice a fraction of it. With all the change at least one moment will be a game changer, a memory seared unto my heart(s). Those are fleeting, always flaring and fading. But they are well worth the pursuit, and worth the wait between those moments. The price is worth the gain. The people, the moments that are forever with us are worth it all, they are worth running to.
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